the 'burbs

i think we have started the inevitable transformation from a hip young urban couple to lame suburban parents. we bought a new car this weekend (a honda cr-v, which is about as close to an suv you can get without feeling like you are killing an acre of trees with every mile), went shopping at babies 'r' us, ate dinner at boston market last night, and signed a lease on a cute little house with a backyard tonight. the only thing missing is the whole "parent" status, which will be cured in 82 days.

82 days?! i always thought to myself that the really scary time would be when the ticker hit 100. i've been so busy with everything that i missed the 100 mark. he'll be here before we know it. now that i can feel him moving around a lot it is a constant reminder that the little bun is cooking in there, but it is still so unreal. i think i've said it before, but every time i actually sit back and think about what is happening now and what will occur on or around february 11, i just can't handle it. i can't wrap my mind around it. when i try to, i am completely overwhelmed with so many emotions - fear of the unknown, contentment that everything is fine with him, love for him and jim, sorrow for the life we will be leaving behind once he arrives, excitement to meet him and to know a joy that i can't understand now, and panic that we won't be ready. i guess we'll never really be ready, even if we had a lifetime to prepare.

good thing the little guy won't remember anything for the first couple of years.