clockwatcher
i had to go back to work full time in the new year. i know, i know. it sucks. big time. i had requested to stay part time but the management denied my request. their reasoning (at least to them) is valid. i don't really agree. they basically told me that although i was the best case scenario, what would happen if someone who wasn't the best case scenario wanted the same schedule? they just couldn't risk it.
setting aside the fact that no one has ever asked for part time before, so the likelihood of the worst case scenario actually wanting to work less is really slim, why should i be punished? i was working three days a week, there 1o or sometimes 11 hours a day. i was super efficient, really motivated, and a happy employee. now that i am back full time i feel like i have nothing to do, i have no desire to work hard, and am always slightly annoyed. all i do is wait for exactly 9.5 hours from the time i got in and make a break for it. total clockwatcher.
it's not all bad, though. (remember resolution #3). i got to be so efficient while working part time, i now have two full days at work where i am free. i can catch up on email, phone calls, do a little internet surfing, personal errands at lunch, etc. no longer do i feel like i am kind of half-assing both work and being at home. part time is really what i want, but it is difficult. you always feel like you are playing catch up with either work or home. you actually do more, since you operate at about 75% with both, rather than resigning yourself to the fact that you must concentrate fully at work and the home stuff goes by the wayside.
but even the most positive outlook cannot change the fact that all i really want to do is be with s-dogg! i know what i need to do - to leave, and open up a small practice from home - but it is really really scary. i've talked about leaving my job for years, but for whatever reason i've always stayed. all i ever wanted to do was go private. now i think it's time.
setting aside the fact that no one has ever asked for part time before, so the likelihood of the worst case scenario actually wanting to work less is really slim, why should i be punished? i was working three days a week, there 1o or sometimes 11 hours a day. i was super efficient, really motivated, and a happy employee. now that i am back full time i feel like i have nothing to do, i have no desire to work hard, and am always slightly annoyed. all i do is wait for exactly 9.5 hours from the time i got in and make a break for it. total clockwatcher.
it's not all bad, though. (remember resolution #3). i got to be so efficient while working part time, i now have two full days at work where i am free. i can catch up on email, phone calls, do a little internet surfing, personal errands at lunch, etc. no longer do i feel like i am kind of half-assing both work and being at home. part time is really what i want, but it is difficult. you always feel like you are playing catch up with either work or home. you actually do more, since you operate at about 75% with both, rather than resigning yourself to the fact that you must concentrate fully at work and the home stuff goes by the wayside.
but even the most positive outlook cannot change the fact that all i really want to do is be with s-dogg! i know what i need to do - to leave, and open up a small practice from home - but it is really really scary. i've talked about leaving my job for years, but for whatever reason i've always stayed. all i ever wanted to do was go private. now i think it's time.
posted by little bean at 10:42 AM
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