the tadpole

for now jim and i have decided to call the little bean a tadpole. on one of the websites i now frequent they had a description of the little embryo and compared it to a tadpole. this is what it looks like right now, at 6 weeks.

weird. i am still in a state of complete shock. the thought that something looking like that is living inside my stomach is gross, scary, and magical all at once. i am not a religious person, but i think i understand why people call this process a miracle. the idea that half of jim and half of me somehow got together and produced this alien in my belly is crazy! and that in less than 8 months we'll have a human being to take care of? and that i was once this same size? even harder to grasp. this is all so unbelievable.

it also doesn't help that i have little or no symptoms. i feel really tired, my boobs are sore, and i feel a little nauseated throughout the day, but for the most part you would never know i was pregnant. also, i haven't seen the doctor yet. she didn't want to see me until 8-10 weeks so that we could do the first sonogram and actually see a heartbeat. i can't wait for that! i am so excited to see the tadpole on the big screen!