8 months to go

it's really amazing how everything changes the moment you find out you're having a baby. one day, you're thinking about the next vacation you are planning, where you're going out for dinner that night, what cocktail parties you'll be throwing, what clothes and toys you want to buy for yourselves. the next day, the focus shifts to the little embryo quickly growing inside your belly.

we found out about our upcoming parenthood on saturday, and it is all i can think about since then. i can't believe this is happening. i can't believe it happened so quickly. i hope the little embryo is safe. i hope we can afford all of the crap we will have to buy. i hope we'll be good parents. i hope the stress of it all doesn't kill me or our relationship. i hope our little bean will be smart, but not too dorky. i hope that somehow i can figure out what in the world to do with my career during and after this pregnancy. i hope i don't become obese over the next 8 months. i hope we made the right decision...

but even though i am obsessing over it, thinking all of these thoughts in my head, i know that all of these feelings are completely normal. it is just part of this scary, exciting, wonderful, stressful, emotional, incredible journey that jim and i have decided to embark upon. i know we are prepared for it and i'm so excited to see what the next 8 months bring.